Sacred Sexuality: Things Are Not Always What They Seem

Blessings beloveds,

I am still processing the information I received from China Brooks. Today I want to touch on sacred sexuality. Sacred sexuality can mean many things to many different people depending on which culture you gain your knowledge from or how you incorporate the various strains of practice. In general, sacred sexuality is the cultivation of creative energy that is synonymous with sexual energy for manifestation and spiritual alignment. Again, that is not the full story/history/or practice but just to give you a basic idea of what I will be speaking on (remember google is your friend).

One area that China touched on was the use of different rituals to gain energy from others. These can be large scale performances, events, or interpersonal interactions such as 1:1 conversations.  When we are not centered in our energy, are aware of what connections we make, and know how to manage that energy we run the risk of being siphoned for our creative energy. You know where we are heading with this? Oh yes story time.

Remember my last post about the young man? If not flip back and check it out to get  a little info on that situation. Well it took a little time, because I was not aware of how my energy was being transmuted or to whom to realize that he was feeding off of my energy. That my creativity was fueling much of the insights and projects that he was constructing. I was finding myself slightly fueled as it was at first a mutually beneficial exchange. Eventually though there was a desire on my part to want to increase the magnitude of the energy that we created. This would require more time and increased commitment to the process. I did not know that that was what I desired. I saw how large this work could be but by still operating from a space that needed healing this came out as possessiveness. Of course this was not welcomed from the other side. Yet, there was still the continued desire  from this other person to draw from our union. Yes, the power there was that strong.

What followed was an intense healing experience. As I realized that my level of attachment (I will post about attachment later) was not what I desired and the energy I was putting into the partnership was not being equally matched, I began the process of pulling my energy back unto myself. I followed the shadow healing process described in Jane Meredith’s  Journey to the Dark Goddess: How to Return to Your Soul and it was life changing. I truly delved into the many areas that I needed healing in that were not going to be healed by filling them with light and love. Yes, sometimes that is exactly what we need is that spectrum of support which originates in light. And sometimes, we need that support that comes from the crevices of our soul. That which can only be dissolved and reborn within the womb of darkness.

What came forth from that union was not what I thought it would be. It was a truer more integrated Rose. One that was shy of the darkness or the light. Who relaxed in the shade and danced in the sun. It started a new cycle, where old habits would have no choice but to transform. I would say that although my behavior was not the best I am now so much more centered. More open to the divine being that I am. So I am thankful. I find appreciation in that experience.

So how does this tie into sacred sexuality? It’s that energy of creation! A rebirth of my being, the ultimate manifestation was achieved through that relationship. It was the shift that can be made when one takes on the decision to incorporate sacred sexuality into your life. Even if you have no idea what you are doing. Setting that intention will get the ball rolling and before you know it your world will reflect back to you the way to have what you desire here and now.

I know stand in the space where I ask: Rose, what is it you would like? What would make your heart smile and soul shine? So I ask you, what is it that you desire? Name it and claim it.






Divine Alignment

Blessings beloveds,

Today I caught a periscope from the Goddess China Mae Brooks, who you can check out here at to find out more about her powerful teachings and even get some coaching on her effective techniques. She went to see a minister in Self Realization Fellowship (SRF) to speak about sacred sexuality, tantra, and relationships. If you want to know what she found out follow her on periscope but know that that information is time sensitive so it’s only available for 24 hours.

I had such thoughts on the subject. That can be best expressed through a story time.

From when I can first remember, I have longed and felt the draw to align with a divine partner. This topic of early knowing of a desire for male/female connection isn’t really touched on in the groups and individuals that I am in contact with. It was not a sexual longing or desire it was a nurturing, loving, caring this is the person that you are uniquely connected with knowledge that I held. So from an early age before the age of 5, I have drawn in that caring nature from masculine energy.

There are many other stories to share about my adventures in this area but I want to focus on my latest encounter. This young man was someone who I admired deeply initially based on the surface information that I knew about him. There was an immediate attraction to his energy and the knowledge that he held. But there was also a clear knowing of what I desired from a partnership and what that would feel like and include. Some of which he did not hold. So initially I said hmm well I sense a connection but it must not be that relationship that I thought it was. So I left it alone. Over time though we continued to interact and eventually began to talk on a more that platonic level. I found it to be one of the most philosophical maturing conversations that I have had one on one continuously with a cis-male of color that was not steeped in concentrating on socially constructed identity. Well that’s how it seemed.

Over time though the truth of where this persons energy was emerged. Which is what will always happen. I believe in vibrating consciously. Seeking to hold the best feelings that one can so that we are constantly moving towards and cultivating bliss. What I saw was all these very challenging events happen in life that seemed to be a constant. It was strange to me because what was spoken externally was so out of alignment with the actual lived experience of this individual.

Now, do not think that I am saying that I do not have my own work to do. I attracted and engaged in this interaction with this individual so I had/have lessons to learn. But what this truly pointed out to me was the importance of personal alignment with self.

Our thoughts

Our words

Our actions

If one of these areas is out of alignment it will become evident in another. For instance if one’s thoughts are focused on poverty, stress, or lack but their words and actions are prosperity focused, they may find themselves asking why am I not receiving what I ask for? Why am I working so hard but not reaping the rewards? At some point there is a notch that is out of alignment.

I realized through my time with this individual that unless I followed the exercises to bring myself into alignment in these three areas then I too would not see the fulfillment of my desires. I see this play out for myself in my weight. It draws back to my internal thoughts of self worth and self care. As I bring myself into alignment where my thoughts and words match up my actions follow.

This isn’t news to anyone I’m sure. Yet, I know that we find ourselves desiring expansion. It is our way of being to want more. More love, experiences, friends, travel, material things, peace, or knowledge. Whether intrinsic or extrinsic, we are designed to seek expansion. Which means there is always space and ability to learn more. So here is my latest way of bringing myself into personal alignment.

Sacred baths (contact me to learn more)


Morning yoga flow

Incense centered morning energy cleanse (posts on this coming soon).

How do you find alignment? I would love to share and discuss.






New Spot New Blog

Hello everyone!

I am moving up and changing spaces. When you are ready to do big things you take the steps to be able to achieve success. So here I will feature my thoughts, adventures, and knowledge on all things health related. More importantly, I’ll be speaking on activities and paradigms related to self care and nurturing.

One thing that I can say with conviction is that the number one thing we can do for ourselves is make sure that our cup is not only full but overflowing. That overflow is what we give to others. It’s the love, time, and attention that we express when looking after that which is external to ourselves. This allows for us to care for others while still having energy to care for ourselves. This is only possible by making sure that we are putting ourselves as the top priority in our life.

Here are my favorite ways to practice self care

  1. Taking a long hot bath
  2. Meditation
  3. Reading
  4. Spending time in nature
  5. walking

I’ll cover these in more detail later. How do you perform self care?