Resurrection: The First Step

Greetings beloveds,

I’m resting in a small 5 room inn and restaurant in Glastonbury after 3 days of immersion in the energies of Avalon. It’s been 5 days since my 31st birthday. This past year feels like a flash of light. I spent the beginning trying to navigate a really toxic work relationship while getting back to my true self. One that made me face my darker aspects that are mean, petty, and envious of others because I still compare myself to what others have achieved. It’s something that I am constantly working on to change my inner dialogue about my worth and my relationships to others. My inner dialogue sometimes is so supportive but at other times I say very disparaging things about myself. Some of these things are so ingrained in my psyche that I do not even realize that I’m saying them unless I’m being consciously aware of my thoughts.

My intention for my 31st year on this subject is to turn my thoughts towards the positive. I want to not feel that anxiety and rise in energy when there’s something really big I want to work on or achieve. So here’s my list of goals for the 31st year.

  • make 2 videos a month
  • post oracle or tarot cards everyday
  • model in two spiritual photo shoots
  • hold 2 spiritual healing retreats
  • finish my coursework for my doctorate
  • make some headway on my coursework for my counseling degree
  • get my CHES certificate
  • finish my dark goddesses/gods tarot and oracle decks
  • finish my Goddesses of life and death curriculum
  • write at least 10,000 words for my book
  • save 3,000 dollars
  • travel to Egypt
  • meditate for 15 minutes everyday
  • Work out for 60 minutes 5x a week

The goal that feels the most vulnerable to me is to open my heart. To move from my heart and use the wisdom I have learned along with my powerful will to manifest the life that I want.

I’ve had several folks share with me that my higher self has visited them asking why I continue to hold her back. My only response is that I’m scared of what would come. In my heart I know that things will work out but there’s still this fear of losing my current lifestyle that I am holding on to. I want to expand and do more but I also feel so tired. I must spend my time taking care of myself. What this means in relation to my goals, I’m not sure but I know that I can make headway on many of them. So here’s to a new year for me as we transition from the energy of harvest to death. I welcome change and new starts. I hope you do too.

With love,

Kamilah Rose

 

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Full Moon in Taurus: Well of Wisdom

Greetings beloveds,

Tired? Me too. It’s been a long 10 months of 2018. The new moon in Venus, Venus retrograde, and the sun moving in to Scorpio have brought up all of our shadows are love. Love towards ourselves and love towards each other. The scales are being weighed. Have you found yourself to be lacking? Are you looking at what others have, trying to find out how you get to be like them? Scrolling through social media or visiting friends where you find yourself comparing your life to theirs. Yet, the Emperor is wearing no clothes. Social media presents a carefully cultivated world where even when someone is experiencing a difficult time it still seems like their life is amazing.

This Taurus full moon, focus on what you know you excel at. There is a special wisdom that only you hold. It allows for you to navigate the world in a way that only works for you. When you tap into your well of wisdom, you realize that it doesn’t matter if someone’s life is better or worse than yours. There is no game, there is no competition, there’s nothing to win. Yet, everyday can be a victory because everyday you make choices that reflect your truest hearts desires. Here’s a challenge for you for the next 18 days until the new moon in Scorpio where ewe will do deep shadow work.

Each day take 10 minutes to be still with the intention to discover a new piece of personal wisdom. Love yourself radically. You are smart, capable and fully able to be a success at being yourself.

Take some time to be kind to yourself.

-Kamilah Rose

October Astrology: Scorpio Season

autumn moments (2)October 9 Mercury enters Scorpio

Friends don’t keep secrets but Scorpios do. Communication in the sign of Scorpio functions on a needs to know basis. Although you may pour your heart out to Scorpion,  you’ll only realize that you learned nothing about them days or weeks later. Mercury in Scorpio pulls us towards deep conversations about our hopes and fears. About the things that keep us up at night. Clawing at our souls to be seen. We turn inward from the scales of speaking our truth towards wisdom, fear or denial. How do you hold truth? Do you shy away from what is burying your head in the sand or use your oxygen mask to explore the depths of humanity.

October 23 Sun enters Scorpio

We balanced our scales and now to give us the strength to face our darkness Scorpio comes forth to deliver the medicine of painful healing. Scorpios are ruled by the planet Pluto, signifying their dark mysterious personalities. I mean let’s be honest Pluto was the last planet to be discovered it was that far outside of our reality. Then, Pluto lost its planet status signifying just how little we really understand Scorpio’s and who they are. One minute you think you have them figured out and the next you’re not even sure if they are human because no one should be that hard to define. You may not feel that you can define a Scorpio but best believe there’s a really easy way to recognize them. Scorpio’s didn’t do all that deep sea psychological diving for nothing. They know who they are, their values, and what they desire. They are the person at the party who isn’t loud, doesn’t have to be the center of attention and yet when they saunter by your table every eye turns in their direction. Scorpio’s knowledge of self and others is magnetic. It is highly desirable because they are the most stable water sign and their emotional states are together.

Scorpio’s connection to the underworld means they are permanently connected to the spiritual realm. Giving them access to what is occurring beneath the surface of our actions, thoughts, and beliefs. When Scorpio’s take this knowing combined with their inherent value of human worth and rise from the underworld they soar as the Eagle.Scorpio’s in their Eagle form take their place beside the Libra warriors of Justice and the Sagittarian Phoenix to defend those who are may not have the strength to defend themselves. They are the swift retribution brought down on those who harm others. Their keen eyesight let’s the see divine truth while their talons can both snatch those in need out of harms way while decimating the perpetrators. The Eagle is just one option. If Scorpio becomes to focused on self, wallowing in a state of mistrust and suspicion, then they may become the grey lizard. Never leaving the ground, never using their skills to assist themselves or each other. The grey lizard lacks perspective and passion, preferring to stay close to the ground where they feel safe. Scorpio’s can be whatever they wish. They are the darkness before creation. They are the space that exists before all new things come into being. They must make the choice of fear versus flight.

October 31 Mercury enters Sagittarius and Venus Retrograde enters Libra.

There is much happening today. Mercury enters into Sagittarius and Venus retrograde moves into Libra. We feel moved to share more, embrace transparency and have more fun. After the heavy cleansing of the past month, we are ready for this break. Yet, depending on where you are in your journey you may embody any of the faces of Kali. May you act though as the destroyer of ignorance and fear. Perhaps you have found that the scales were just too much for you this past few weeks. As others have risen speaking without thought of their words impact, transmute that energy into power for your work and purpose. Sagittarius is an energy of knowledge and exploration. You cannot learn sometimes unless you are willing to step out from your comfort zone. So take a step of faith with the belief that you will learn what you need and be able to serve as you desire.

As Venus retrogrades back into Libra, I caution you to approach this time with great respect. Libra has expressed herself recently as the energy of Oya and Oya is not here to play. If you are not familiar with Oya I suggest that you just give your respects to this energy and not give offerings. Oya made it very clear that she brings us through gates into the underworld of the colder months of the year. Her message is to let what is passed die. Focus on what builds you up over what brings you down. This is a time of prosperity and abundance but only if you are open to receiving it. The scales have been laced before you. What have you hidden from the world afraid to even acknowledge? Place them on the scales along with your heart. Which is heavier? Which guides you? The influence of others and their expectations or your essence from within? It’s choice. Choose wisely.

Love always,

Kamilah Rose

New Moon in Libra: Steady Like the Fulcrum

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Let’s talk new moon in Libra. Yes yes love yourself and each other. Blah blah reexamine your relationships and release those that don’t serve you. I’ll say as a Libra this is been a great season for me. Very busy and I’m tried all the time but just so many good things. Now yes, politics are trash lately but that hasn’t had that much of an affect on my daily emotional state. I realized that as Libra usually does once we’ve made our judgement there isn’t a drive to be emotionally invested.

Here’s a tip for this new moon in Libra and Libra season: I encourage you to behave like a Libra. Now I know some of you are like “ugh gross!” but hear me out. Libra’s are built for our current state of society. Think about it. Balance, harmony, extreme changes, discerning, the connectors of the astrological gang. When you need to bring people together you grab a Libra. Having a hard time seeing a different perspective, a Libra will argue you down on both viewpoints. Always in the crowd but in their own world. Connected enough to experience the energy of the world but detached enough to develop practical next steps. Also, they know how to practice some great self-care when they aren’t taking care of everyone else.

There’s a lot of emotional energy active right now. We’re getting ready to sllooooowww down and ground in winter, but we are making sense of what happened this summer right now. Be gentle with yourself. Make a daily schedule, meet up with friends, look at the sunset, moon, and stars. There’s so much beauty in this world but equal to that is the capacity for cruelty. We experience moments of joy and pain pulling for our attention. Clawing at us. So, here’s my Libra advice to you as you take up our mantle this season. Be the fulcrum. The scales tip and sway. They are in constant motion with every breath shifting. The fulcrum is the foundation. It holds the center so that eventually as things begin to settle down balance can be found.

Oya is the Goddess of Life and Death who made her presence very well known for this season and Libra moons. (Storms anyone?) I’ll caution you against just putting up an altar to this Orisha. She is a very powerful being and a part of a closed system. But she is here to clear some things out. Just let her do her job. I caution you to do the same. Find your purpose and follow it. Starve the distractions and stay steady like the fulcrum. Everything else around you will shift but know your truth and you will always find your path.

Oh and there’s always room for anything that makes you feel beautiful darling. You’re worth all of this hard work. And if you get tired, just give what’s left to a Virgo lol.

Never lose your sense of humor,

-Kamilah Rose

October Astrology: October and Venus Retrograde

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I’ve been quiet. Super quiet. Taking pics and posting on Instagram with one word descriptions. Meeting up with folks in person and just connecting. Why? Because way back in spring, it became very clear that this year was going to be a rough emotional year. It’s an 11/2 year which is grounded in the feminine but there’s so much transition happening that it feels like ripping a band-aid off over and over again for a wound that never heals.

It’s fall now in the northern hemisphere which means we have entered into the underworld of the feminine. The masculine is making it’s way back out to do it’s part of holding down the fort while the feminine does its work. Libra season balances out the scales by bringing the darkness to light. 2017 we saw #metoo, 2018 it’s the Kavanaugh trial. We still categorize Libra as the superficial fun loving indecisive Kim Kardashian’s of the zodiac. We limit the power of this energy. When you dive deeply into Libra you find the sword of truth yielded by a conscious beauty which forgets NOTHING. Moving forward? Great no problem. Letting go, that swords not here to just look pretty. Embrace the change even if it hurts. When we rise in the spring you’ll be grateful for release.

October 5 Venus Retrograde

Oh Venus, planet of love, justice, jealously, passion, relationships, contracts and retribution. In a season of embracing the darkness this is the best time to evaluate our relationships right? Now, yes this means our ex’s could be popping up in the DM’s but honestly this can happen at any time. Here’s my suggestion for you during Venus retrograde.

  1. Find your Venus sign: Everyone has a different relationship to this planet. Take the time to explore how you relate to Venus. Are you a Venus in Aries or Sagittarius? Each other these have vastly different ways of expressing romance, friendships,
  2. Find the house of your Venus: Again, the house that your Venus is located in will effect how you relate to others.
  3. Take note of how you personally understand relationships. What are your boundaries, values, ethics, and fears towards each other following categories? This will help to show what work you have to do or what lessons you may encounter during this retrograde.
    1. Self
    2. Friendships
    3. Work/Career
    4. Romantic
    5. Nature

Release Your Wishes Ritual

  • Cleanse and clear your energy
  • Call upon your ancestors and patrons for guidance and protection
  • Set your sacred space in your preferred way
  • Take 9 strips of paper and write one of your fears related to relationships on each piece. Bury these in near by forest or flush down the toilet.
  • Take 9 Pennies and make a wish on each one. Visit your local cemetery or family cemetery and leave your pennies there.
  • End your ritual with some chocolate and your favorite wine/grape juice.

Are you ready?

Kamilah Rose