Resurrection: The First Step

Greetings beloveds,

I’m resting in a small 5 room inn and restaurant in Glastonbury after 3 days of immersion in the energies of Avalon. It’s been 5 days since my 31st birthday. This past year feels like a flash of light. I spent the beginning trying to navigate a really toxic work relationship while getting back to my true self. One that made me face my darker aspects that are mean, petty, and envious of others because I still compare myself to what others have achieved. It’s something that I am constantly working on to change my inner dialogue about my worth and my relationships to others. My inner dialogue sometimes is so supportive but at other times I say very disparaging things about myself. Some of these things are so ingrained in my psyche that I do not even realize that I’m saying them unless I’m being consciously aware of my thoughts.

My intention for my 31st year on this subject is to turn my thoughts towards the positive. I want to not feel that anxiety and rise in energy when there’s something really big I want to work on or achieve. So here’s my list of goals for the 31st year.

  • make 2 videos a month
  • post oracle or tarot cards everyday
  • model in two spiritual photo shoots
  • hold 2 spiritual healing retreats
  • finish my coursework for my doctorate
  • make some headway on my coursework for my counseling degree
  • get my CHES certificate
  • finish my dark goddesses/gods tarot and oracle decks
  • finish my Goddesses of life and death curriculum
  • write at least 10,000 words for my book
  • save 3,000 dollars
  • travel to Egypt
  • meditate for 15 minutes everyday
  • Work out for 60 minutes 5x a week

The goal that feels the most vulnerable to me is to open my heart. To move from my heart and use the wisdom I have learned along with my powerful will to manifest the life that I want.

I’ve had several folks share with me that my higher self has visited them asking why I continue to hold her back. My only response is that I’m scared of what would come. In my heart I know that things will work out but there’s still this fear of losing my current lifestyle that I am holding on to. I want to expand and do more but I also feel so tired. I must spend my time taking care of myself. What this means in relation to my goals, I’m not sure but I know that I can make headway on many of them. So here’s to a new year for me as we transition from the energy of harvest to death. I welcome change and new starts. I hope you do too.

With love,

Kamilah Rose

 

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Full Moon in Taurus: Well of Wisdom

Greetings beloveds,

Tired? Me too. It’s been a long 10 months of 2018. The new moon in Venus, Venus retrograde, and the sun moving in to Scorpio have brought up all of our shadows are love. Love towards ourselves and love towards each other. The scales are being weighed. Have you found yourself to be lacking? Are you looking at what others have, trying to find out how you get to be like them? Scrolling through social media or visiting friends where you find yourself comparing your life to theirs. Yet, the Emperor is wearing no clothes. Social media presents a carefully cultivated world where even when someone is experiencing a difficult time it still seems like their life is amazing.

This Taurus full moon, focus on what you know you excel at. There is a special wisdom that only you hold. It allows for you to navigate the world in a way that only works for you. When you tap into your well of wisdom, you realize that it doesn’t matter if someone’s life is better or worse than yours. There is no game, there is no competition, there’s nothing to win. Yet, everyday can be a victory because everyday you make choices that reflect your truest hearts desires. Here’s a challenge for you for the next 18 days until the new moon in Scorpio where ewe will do deep shadow work.

Each day take 10 minutes to be still with the intention to discover a new piece of personal wisdom. Love yourself radically. You are smart, capable and fully able to be a success at being yourself.

Take some time to be kind to yourself.

-Kamilah Rose

October Astrology: Scorpio Season

autumn moments (2)October 9 Mercury enters Scorpio

Friends don’t keep secrets but Scorpios do. Communication in the sign of Scorpio functions on a needs to know basis. Although you may pour your heart out to Scorpion,  you’ll only realize that you learned nothing about them days or weeks later. Mercury in Scorpio pulls us towards deep conversations about our hopes and fears. About the things that keep us up at night. Clawing at our souls to be seen. We turn inward from the scales of speaking our truth towards wisdom, fear or denial. How do you hold truth? Do you shy away from what is burying your head in the sand or use your oxygen mask to explore the depths of humanity.

October 23 Sun enters Scorpio

We balanced our scales and now to give us the strength to face our darkness Scorpio comes forth to deliver the medicine of painful healing. Scorpios are ruled by the planet Pluto, signifying their dark mysterious personalities. I mean let’s be honest Pluto was the last planet to be discovered it was that far outside of our reality. Then, Pluto lost its planet status signifying just how little we really understand Scorpio’s and who they are. One minute you think you have them figured out and the next you’re not even sure if they are human because no one should be that hard to define. You may not feel that you can define a Scorpio but best believe there’s a really easy way to recognize them. Scorpio’s didn’t do all that deep sea psychological diving for nothing. They know who they are, their values, and what they desire. They are the person at the party who isn’t loud, doesn’t have to be the center of attention and yet when they saunter by your table every eye turns in their direction. Scorpio’s knowledge of self and others is magnetic. It is highly desirable because they are the most stable water sign and their emotional states are together.

Scorpio’s connection to the underworld means they are permanently connected to the spiritual realm. Giving them access to what is occurring beneath the surface of our actions, thoughts, and beliefs. When Scorpio’s take this knowing combined with their inherent value of human worth and rise from the underworld they soar as the Eagle.Scorpio’s in their Eagle form take their place beside the Libra warriors of Justice and the Sagittarian Phoenix to defend those who are may not have the strength to defend themselves. They are the swift retribution brought down on those who harm others. Their keen eyesight let’s the see divine truth while their talons can both snatch those in need out of harms way while decimating the perpetrators. The Eagle is just one option. If Scorpio becomes to focused on self, wallowing in a state of mistrust and suspicion, then they may become the grey lizard. Never leaving the ground, never using their skills to assist themselves or each other. The grey lizard lacks perspective and passion, preferring to stay close to the ground where they feel safe. Scorpio’s can be whatever they wish. They are the darkness before creation. They are the space that exists before all new things come into being. They must make the choice of fear versus flight.

October 31 Mercury enters Sagittarius and Venus Retrograde enters Libra.

There is much happening today. Mercury enters into Sagittarius and Venus retrograde moves into Libra. We feel moved to share more, embrace transparency and have more fun. After the heavy cleansing of the past month, we are ready for this break. Yet, depending on where you are in your journey you may embody any of the faces of Kali. May you act though as the destroyer of ignorance and fear. Perhaps you have found that the scales were just too much for you this past few weeks. As others have risen speaking without thought of their words impact, transmute that energy into power for your work and purpose. Sagittarius is an energy of knowledge and exploration. You cannot learn sometimes unless you are willing to step out from your comfort zone. So take a step of faith with the belief that you will learn what you need and be able to serve as you desire.

As Venus retrogrades back into Libra, I caution you to approach this time with great respect. Libra has expressed herself recently as the energy of Oya and Oya is not here to play. If you are not familiar with Oya I suggest that you just give your respects to this energy and not give offerings. Oya made it very clear that she brings us through gates into the underworld of the colder months of the year. Her message is to let what is passed die. Focus on what builds you up over what brings you down. This is a time of prosperity and abundance but only if you are open to receiving it. The scales have been laced before you. What have you hidden from the world afraid to even acknowledge? Place them on the scales along with your heart. Which is heavier? Which guides you? The influence of others and their expectations or your essence from within? It’s choice. Choose wisely.

Love always,

Kamilah Rose

New Moon in Libra: Steady Like the Fulcrum

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Let’s talk new moon in Libra. Yes yes love yourself and each other. Blah blah reexamine your relationships and release those that don’t serve you. I’ll say as a Libra this is been a great season for me. Very busy and I’m tried all the time but just so many good things. Now yes, politics are trash lately but that hasn’t had that much of an affect on my daily emotional state. I realized that as Libra usually does once we’ve made our judgement there isn’t a drive to be emotionally invested.

Here’s a tip for this new moon in Libra and Libra season: I encourage you to behave like a Libra. Now I know some of you are like “ugh gross!” but hear me out. Libra’s are built for our current state of society. Think about it. Balance, harmony, extreme changes, discerning, the connectors of the astrological gang. When you need to bring people together you grab a Libra. Having a hard time seeing a different perspective, a Libra will argue you down on both viewpoints. Always in the crowd but in their own world. Connected enough to experience the energy of the world but detached enough to develop practical next steps. Also, they know how to practice some great self-care when they aren’t taking care of everyone else.

There’s a lot of emotional energy active right now. We’re getting ready to sllooooowww down and ground in winter, but we are making sense of what happened this summer right now. Be gentle with yourself. Make a daily schedule, meet up with friends, look at the sunset, moon, and stars. There’s so much beauty in this world but equal to that is the capacity for cruelty. We experience moments of joy and pain pulling for our attention. Clawing at us. So, here’s my Libra advice to you as you take up our mantle this season. Be the fulcrum. The scales tip and sway. They are in constant motion with every breath shifting. The fulcrum is the foundation. It holds the center so that eventually as things begin to settle down balance can be found.

Oya is the Goddess of Life and Death who made her presence very well known for this season and Libra moons. (Storms anyone?) I’ll caution you against just putting up an altar to this Orisha. She is a very powerful being and a part of a closed system. But she is here to clear some things out. Just let her do her job. I caution you to do the same. Find your purpose and follow it. Starve the distractions and stay steady like the fulcrum. Everything else around you will shift but know your truth and you will always find your path.

Oh and there’s always room for anything that makes you feel beautiful darling. You’re worth all of this hard work. And if you get tired, just give what’s left to a Virgo lol.

Never lose your sense of humor,

-Kamilah Rose

October Astrology: October and Venus Retrograde

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I’ve been quiet. Super quiet. Taking pics and posting on Instagram with one word descriptions. Meeting up with folks in person and just connecting. Why? Because way back in spring, it became very clear that this year was going to be a rough emotional year. It’s an 11/2 year which is grounded in the feminine but there’s so much transition happening that it feels like ripping a band-aid off over and over again for a wound that never heals.

It’s fall now in the northern hemisphere which means we have entered into the underworld of the feminine. The masculine is making it’s way back out to do it’s part of holding down the fort while the feminine does its work. Libra season balances out the scales by bringing the darkness to light. 2017 we saw #metoo, 2018 it’s the Kavanaugh trial. We still categorize Libra as the superficial fun loving indecisive Kim Kardashian’s of the zodiac. We limit the power of this energy. When you dive deeply into Libra you find the sword of truth yielded by a conscious beauty which forgets NOTHING. Moving forward? Great no problem. Letting go, that swords not here to just look pretty. Embrace the change even if it hurts. When we rise in the spring you’ll be grateful for release.

October 5 Venus Retrograde

Oh Venus, planet of love, justice, jealously, passion, relationships, contracts and retribution. In a season of embracing the darkness this is the best time to evaluate our relationships right? Now, yes this means our ex’s could be popping up in the DM’s but honestly this can happen at any time. Here’s my suggestion for you during Venus retrograde.

  1. Find your Venus sign: Everyone has a different relationship to this planet. Take the time to explore how you relate to Venus. Are you a Venus in Aries or Sagittarius? Each other these have vastly different ways of expressing romance, friendships,
  2. Find the house of your Venus: Again, the house that your Venus is located in will effect how you relate to others.
  3. Take note of how you personally understand relationships. What are your boundaries, values, ethics, and fears towards each other following categories? This will help to show what work you have to do or what lessons you may encounter during this retrograde.
    1. Self
    2. Friendships
    3. Work/Career
    4. Romantic
    5. Nature

Release Your Wishes Ritual

  • Cleanse and clear your energy
  • Call upon your ancestors and patrons for guidance and protection
  • Set your sacred space in your preferred way
  • Take 9 strips of paper and write one of your fears related to relationships on each piece. Bury these in near by forest or flush down the toilet.
  • Take 9 Pennies and make a wish on each one. Visit your local cemetery or family cemetery and leave your pennies there.
  • End your ritual with some chocolate and your favorite wine/grape juice.

Are you ready?

Kamilah Rose

Goddesses of Life and Death: Coatlicue- Aztec Earth Goddess

Greetings Beloveds,

Today we are covering the Goddess of Life and Death Coatlicue the Aztec Earth Goddess. You may or may not have heard of Coatlicue but there is always more to be explored. Below you’ll find a quick online resource guide which explores the story of Coatlicue from various perspectives.

Enjoy!

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Ancient History Encyclopedia- Coatlicue

Khan Academy- Coatlicue

Encyclopedia Britannica- Coatlicue

Time Top 10 Earth Goddesses

Inside Mexico- The Legend of Coatlicue and Coyolxauhqui

The Great Courses Plus- The Colossal Stone Statue of Coatlicue

The Gods Laid Bare

Wikipedia-Coatlicue

God Checker- Your Guide to the Gods

Infinite Detox- What the Heck is a ‘Coatlicue Complex’

Excerpt from Blood Lines: Myth, Indigenism, and Chicana/o Literature by Sheila Marie Contreras

Autumn Arrives: Shifting the Energy of Your Home from Summer to Fall

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Greetings beloveds,

It’s finally here! My favorite season and not just because my birthday is in October. Here’s an excerpt on the energy of Autumn

Autumn – What a beautiful time of the year when the world has been scorched clean and is preparing to rest for regeneration. The world is again at a balanced state with the day and night again being of amounts. Yet this energy is distinct from the spring time as it marks the rise in darkness and decline of the light. Everything is beginning to slow down from the activity that was present during the summer. As such you may be feeling the need to slow down a bit as well taking in the last bits of sun before the weather truly begins to cool. Leaning towards spending more time indoors as the energy shifts from coming from the sun to being generated by the Earth that grew from the suns rays lovingly holding that heat for us until we release it through transmutation. This applies also to the foods that we consume at this time. These foods are rich and heavy because of the density of their energy that is packed tightly in order to give this energy to you through integration from being eaten.

The element of Autumn is metal within the Chinese system and although there is no air included in this framework metal holds many of the same characteristics. Metal is associated with the nose and the sense of smell. The air holds life just as much as water, wood, fire, and  earth. Air flows bringing subtle or drastic winds of change to us all. Sweeping away our completed works and driving us to come within from the coming chill. As such the focus is on the lungs and large intestines during this time. Breath rules these areas as the air gives life to fuel the rest of our body as well as move the waste from our lives through the large intestine. If you find yourself feeling sluggish it is never to late to release. Breathe deeply through one of the many forms of meditation that exists such as walking, mindful activities, breath work, or dream work.

Autumn Equinox- Entering the Underworld

 

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I will cover more about entering the underworld later but you can read the rest of that blog post here. One of my favorite parts about fall is it’s signature scents, decor, food, and fellowship. The aroma of apples, cinnamon, cloves, nutmeg, vanilla, and of course pumpkin begins to fill the air. Accent colors and decorations shift from beige, blues, and greens, to yellows, oranges, red, and brown. Leaves and gourds replace shells and nautical themes. Autumn is here.

Using these few tips one can quickly shift the energy of your home, office, or even car to feel more like fall. Another easy way to accomplish this is to open your windows releasing the summer air and welcoming in the fall breezes. I always change out my altar decorations and this always puts me into the energy of the next season. What’s your favorite way to shift the energy of your home from summer to autumn? Share with us below in the comments.

-Rose

Full Moon in Aries: Can You Stand on Your Head?

It’s our full moon in Aries! Whoo we are feeling the movement and letting it guide us towards our biggest desires. When we begin to expand this can cause us to meet resistance in the form of hostility from others around us. Sometimes when we grow and change it makes others uncomfortable because they are not used to us behaving in this way. We might also begin to self-sabotage. Finding ways to keep ourselves from reaching our full potentials because it’s safer to stay small. If you find yourself feeling jealous of others, frustrated with yourself, or having lots of people be hard on you or difficult this is the time to harness the energy of Aries. Face your fears and stand up for yourself. It’s time to be true to who you are. If you are behaving in a way that harms others take that step back and access what you can do to improve how you treat yourself/others.

This fire will be burning through you bringing you experiences of heightened love, creativity, and self-expression. Find the things that bring you joy and make you smile. Staying true to yourself is the key to manifestation as represented by the tale of Coatlicue the Aztec Goddess of Life and Death. Coatlicue birthed the sun, moon, stars and hundreds of other children. After becoming pregnant from a ball of feathers with the God of war, sacrifice, and the sun Huitzilopochtli, her daughter Coyolxauhqui decapated Coatlicue to save them from Huitzilopchtli. Yet, upon her death Huitzilopchtli emerged prepared to serve his purpose. This story illustrates how we have multiple opportunities to follow our calling. That even when it might seem that the world is working against you, it might be just what you need to be free.

You too can harness this energy of transforming the negative into the positive energy as well. There are several ways to accomplish this. One thing you can try is focusing on finding neutral ground in the situation (all things are energy). This will make it so you leverage every action into a form of support for your desires. A second tactic is to appreciate everything that happens to you good and bad. This feeds your shadow giving it the acknowledgment that it seeks so that you are less likely to self-sabotage or become subject to others influence.

Coatlicue lived her life according as she pleased knowing that there must be balance. So as there will be times when you are receiving everything you have ever wanted there will be times when it seems that everything is going wrong. This is the time of greatest power. Keep your head (lol) and use this to your advantage.

Happy full moon loves!

-Kamilah Rose

Fall Equinox Reading: Reaping Abundance

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Welcome to fall lovebugs!

It’s pouring rain as I write. The days are getting shorter and the temps are slowly dropping. Pumpkin spice lattes, pumpkin bread, and soups of every kind are advertised everywhere. Although, it was still summer, the stores have been full of fall décor. Energetically, we are slowing down. Taking more time to see, feel, and be in the world around us. We move from our external to an internal focus. It calls us to see ourselves as more than feeling beings but thinking logical persons who can take their emotions and will power to turn it into more. To be more than just selfish beings that live for creating an amazing world for themselves but a General Reading.

This fall look at the areas of your life where you are flourishing. Have you been writing, drawing, working on a business, decorating, saving up funds for a trip or purchase. Whatever you have been working towards over the past 2 seasons is starting to blossom into a bountiful harvest. At this time, clear out what you picked up over the summer that is taking your attention but not building towards your greater goals.

 

October

October sees us prospering! We are growing, expanding and dreaming of even more ways to bring more love, money, and community into our lives. But are you too comfortable? Are you afraid to break out of your routine to see what else might be available for you? This is a time to explore your perspective towards limits. When we avoid or resist expansion we are expressing that we do not trust ourselves or the universe to provide. Examine where you can grow and begin to put out some feelers. You never know what can come from taking a step on faith.

November:

November shows us the power of community and networking. We are not solitary beings even if we do not have many human connections, the plant and animal kingdom are just as important to our well-being. Take time to build and support your community. As we enter into the season of thanksgiving, give thanks for things big and small that bring you joy. The more that you express how much you enjoy your life and world the more that you will receive more positive experiences. At best, it will make the negative experiences less impactful.

December:

We focused on our community in November and now as we are in the depths of the underworld we are called to look at our personal stories. This month write down you current life story. What happens to you during the day? What thoughts, feelings, and physical sensations did you experience today? Now, around the 20th as we get closer to the winter solstice, spend a day or so dreaming of what you would like your life to look like. Write out what a day, week, month, or even a year would look like for you if you were living completely from a space of expansion and love. Find items that represent this energy and place them on your persona altar to be energetically charged over the winter.

This is a season of getting our thoughts clear. I love you.

Kamilah Rose

Undressing the Shadow: Fall Equinox 2018

Greetings beloveds,

It’s almost fall the season of transition and change. Whether you are entering the underworld in the Northern hemisphere or leaving the underworld in the Southern hemisphere this is a time for exploring what we have learned over the past two seasons. Our biggest lessons may have come from the past season as we processed our feelings towards ourselves, others, our career, family, purpose and society during the summer. Summer as the season of diving deep within the waters of our psyche closes with the perfect full moon in Pisces to help us turn our lessons into dreams for the future. We are now granted the chance to access our findings and face what is holding us back from expansion.

For those of you with planets in Sagittarius you get a helping hand as Jupiter returns home. I’m curious to see if those who are more in tune with masculine energy have an easier time this fall and winter as the masculine returns from the underworld and the feminine takes her time facing her shadow. That’s a discussion for another day. When we are looking at the effects of astrology on shifting with the seasons we find that there is no cookie cutter way to approach any season or time of our life. There are general practices which we can make a part of our rituals such as cleansing our home, personal spaces, and physical forms but creating or tuning into our specific needs allows for us to elevate our practices. Thus, understanding your personal relationships to your astrology, numerology, spiritual practices and sacred space gives us an edge in navigating our various experiences.

As we move into Fall or Spring, depending on where you are located, spend some time tuning into yourself. Sit and explore your feelings, thoughts, and past intentions. Our shadow is only a mystery to us because we continue to turn away from it preferring to focus on our light. Fall is the season of reflection where we weigh our actions, thoughts, and heart to see what needs to be put to rest either to be decomposed or retrieved after winter passes into the energy of springs rebirth.

We have experienced a lot this year. Do not fear letting go of what you think makes you who you are. You are more than your name, your titles, your dreams, your fears. You are starlight flashing through this life for moment by moment.

I love you.

-Kamilah Rose