28 Days of Love: Connecting With Your Heart Exercise

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Day 2 Connecting with your heart exercise

Are you feeling that heart energy? It’s a soft, gentle, tug that flows from the center of your chest to your crown. It swirls through your brow brushing out the clouds of lowness. Bringing a sense of euphoria and celebration. It moves gentle down through your root, legs, and feet to connect you to the Earth. Grounding you in everlasting abundance and stability.

Heart Connection Exercise

Find a comfortable spot where you will be able to relax. This could be a chair, on a pillow on the floor, or your favorite place outside. Anywhere where you can relax, focus and not be interrupted is preferred. Settle into your space. Close your eyes. Focus your attention on your breath. Feel as the oxygen flows into your lungs, filling them with life. Envision all of your worries, all of the drama, all of your responsibilities of the day filling those bits of air. As you completely fill yourself with this deep breath hold it for 5-8 seconds. Really putting your attention towards instilling each other air particle with the stress that you intend to release. When you exhale envision all of those worries releasing to the universe where they are transmuted into refreshing air for the natural world.

Continue these breaths 5-10 times or for however long it takes until you feel completely at ease. Once you have entered that space, center your attention on each chakra starting with your root chakra. Feel it pulse, pull, and draw round your etheric being. There will be a moment when you will feel that connection. It is different for everyone. If you don’t feel anything such as a wave of energy flowing in that area. Repeat this for your sacral, solar plexus, heart, throat, third eye, and crown chakras. As you move upwards through each chakra pull that energy along as you go. Some areas may feel sluggish, although this isn’t an exercise to clear one’s energy you may want to spend some time doing so. You may feel a slight buzzing around your head from this exercise. Continue to move that energy upwards past the crown for our energy fields extend much further than that. In fact continue to let you energy expand as far out as you desire (to infinity and beyond ;)! )

At this time bring your attention back to your heart chakra located at the center of your chest. Feel it pulsate with life and joy. If you feel sorrow, regret, pain, or worry focus on the center of your heart. Burrow down and envision a spark of light/energy/life at that center point. From there picture whatever makes you smile. Then transfer your smile to your heart center. Let your heart smile ad shine forth. Fill it with joy and let that emotion of well-being radiate outwards moving down through your lower chakras into the earth then upwards until it reaches the stars.

When your heart smiles you are connected. Let your joy be your guide.

-Rose

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Goddesses of Life and Death: Pele and Relationship to Inner Divine Feminine

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Greetings beloveds,

Today in my work with Madame Pele I explored what her stories which included her sisters could reveal about the relationship between the self and our inner divine feminine. There are several tales of Madame Pele with her siblings but here are few shared from Robert’s Hawaii which you can visit here.

One common legend says that Pele – who was born in Honua-Mea in Tahiti — was sent away by her father because of her difficult temper and for seducing her sister, Namakaokahai’s, husband. She found her way to the Hawaiian Islands where legend after legend bubbled up around her countless lovers, infidelities and feuds and heated outbursts.

Another well-known story spins a web that Pele’s older brother Kamohoalii (the king of sharks) provided Pele with a large canoe which she and her brothers took and sailed away with – eventually coming to Hawaii. When she made landfall in the islands it was on Kauai, where she was attacked by her sister Namakaokahai and left for dead. According to legend she was able to recover and escaped to Oahu where she dug fire pits, including the crater today called Diamond Head. She traveled through the island chain to Molokai and on to Maui where she is said to have made Haleakala volcano.

Upon discovering Pele had survived, Namakaokahai traveled to Maui and the two engaged in an epic battle near Hana, where Pele was torn apart by her sister and became a god, finding a home on Mauna Kea on Hawaii Island. There she dug her final fire pit, the Halemaumau Crater at the summit of Kilauea, where many believe she resides to this day.

As shown here, Pele appears first as a gifted mortal among a family of powerful beings. She initially is sent away from home for her temper and seduction of her sisters husband. Having relations with a sister’s husband is a narrative taken up by many of our Life and Death Goddesses including Inanna and Isis. In Isis’s case, her sister Nephthys slept with Osiris birthing Anubis. Madame Pele is not described as the gentle, kind, submissive feminine. She expresses herself in a way through which there can be no misinterpretation. She takes what she desires even when that action may be judged.

sunsetMadame Pele then makes her way to Hawaii with several tales that express how that came about. Following her journey from her place of birth to a new land where she creates her own home. Madame Pele, must move beyond the restrictions of her home to a place where she is able to express her sovereignty. Just as we are often forced out of our comfort zones whether that be a home, job, relationship or view of ourself, Madame Pele finds herself in a new world with endless possibilities.

Madame Pele is the unapologetic woman who embraces her sexuality, her drive towards greatness, her need to protect those that she cherishes, and unwillingness to take mess from anyone. She stands up for herself, challenging our dual natures. Right and wrong are not clear or even important. It is the JOURNEY that matters. Madame Pele reflects our boss witch self. She knows her worth and her power…which leads to her downfall. But it is not defeat, it is the transition of life necessary to take her role as a God. This is Madame Pele’s journey to the underworld. Upon her death she becomes the sovereign of the land. Through Madame Pele life is given and life is taken away. She sacrifices her first form as a mortal to become an archetype of the fierce feminine.

Madame Pele is the our inner self who gives no fucks. She lives her life as she pleases giving just as much as she takes. When I connect to the energy of Madame Pele, I feel this bubbling up of energy. It is like a warm liquid fire (lava anyone) that feels fluid and yet stable. I can be petty at times and what would be described as selfish. I am prioritizing my own happiness and health regardless of what others want from me. This has brought a lot of conflict into my life. But honestly, I don’t care. Most of the folks who I am having conflicts with I would rather not be around anyone. I do not fear them even if they have the power to destroy my reputation or how others view me. It is not about them, it is about chasing my dreams. Madame Pele didn’t just chase her dreams, she actualized them.

Madame Pele had a difficult time finding a home where she and her family could be safe-so she made her own and continues to build the land through which her family can thrive with each eruption. Madame Pele creates the flow which others eventually learn to either get in line and respect or get out the way (no one wants to provoke a volcano Goddess). The question is do you judge your flow or do you embrace it?

-Rose

28 Days of Love: Connecting With Your Heart Exercise

electric_heart_by_gxmew.png (1280×960)Day 2 Connecting with your heart exercise

Are you feeling that heart energy? It’s a soft, gentle, tug that flows from the center of your chest to your crown. It swirls through your brow brushing out the clouds of lowness. Bringing a sense of euphoria and celebration. It moves gentle down through your root, legs, and feet to connect you to the Earth. Grounding you in everlasting abundance and stability.

Heart Connection Exercise

Find a comfortable spot where you will be able to relax. This could be a chair, on a pillow on the floor, or your favorite place outside. Anywhere where you can relax, focus and not be interrupted is preferred. Settle into your space. Close your eyes. Focus your attention on your breath. Feel as the oxygen flows into your lungs, filling them with life. Envision all of your worries, all of the drama, all of your responsibilities of the day filling those bits of air. As you completely fill yourself with this deep breath hold it for 5-8 seconds. Really putting your attention towards instilling each other air particle with the stress that you intend to release. When you exhale envision all of those worries releasing to the universe where they are transmuted into refreshing air for the natural world.

Continue these breaths 5-10 times or for however long it takes until you feel completely at ease. Once you have entered that space, center your attention on each chakra starting with your root chakra. Feel it pulse, pull, and draw round your etheric being. There will be a moment when you will feel that connection. It is different for everyone. If you don’t feel anything such as a wave of energy flowing in that area. Repeat this for your sacral, solar plexus, heart, throat, third eye, and crown chakras. As you move upwards through each chakra pull that energy along as you go. Some areas may feel sluggish, although this isn’t an exercise to clear one’s energy you may want to spend some time doing so. You may feel a slight buzzing around your head from this exercise. Continue to move that energy upwards past the crown for our energy fields extend much further than that. In fact continue to let you energy expand as far out as you desire (to infinity and beyond ;)! )

At this time bring your attention back to your heart chakra located at the center of your chest. Feel it pulsate with life and joy. If you feel sorrow, regret, pain, or worry focus on the center of your heart. Burrow down and envision a spark of light/energy/life at that center point. From there picture whatever makes you smile. Then transfer your smile to your heart center. Let your heart smile ad shine forth. Fill it with joy and let that emotion of well-being radiate outwards moving down through your lower chakras into the earth then upwards until it reaches the stars.

When your heart smiles you are connected. Let your joy be your guide.

-Rose

Reflections: Sovereignty Through Shadow and Ancestor Reverence

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Greetings beloveds,

I must say that April was an active month full of change and growth. I spent most of my time meeting, befriending, and integrating my shadow. I am still learning so many aspects of myself but it gets easier every day. I learn more everyday and I am cannot wait to see what comes from this.

Here are some of the highlights of what I found.

I am a super sensual sexual being who represses those desires with food and chocolate specifically.

I am a channel for the Goddess of Death and Rebirth. It is within that void of the 8th gate that we are able to rest and be whole before returning to life.

I am a sorceress might and wild.

I am an oracle who guides and watches over the energy of world.

I pursue relationships with unavailable partners so that I have a socially acceptable reason to be independent, selfish, and sovereign.

I’ve been on a path of sovereignty for quite some time, not realizing that that was what I desired. I’ve come to find that as a black woman there is so much tied up to relationship status, success, tropes, archetypes, work, home…everything. Finding my role as a guide through change, death, rest, and rebirth feels overwhelming at times. When so much is always focused on the light it can be daunting to bring up the dark. It’s there though and never fades. So just as I am here and cannot be forgotten or ignored neither can the shadow. The shadow I have found serves as a gateway to become whole unto myself. To accept all that resides within me both from that which I’ve inherited and which I will leave in this space when I leave.

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What we have inherited as children from some lineage, family’s, races, nations, continents, planet, cosmos, and spirits when explored reveal drives and events that effect us on many levels. In May we will discuss and explore all things related to how our ancestors affect our being both spiritually and practically today. We will start with how to connect with our ancestors through ritual and meditation. Then we will discuss lineage in relation to emotional inheritance and how we can create a lineage of love to leave to those who come after us. Next, there’s nothing as significant to our connection to family or culture than how food figures into our traditions and celebrations. Here I’ll share a family recipe with you all while I review the connection between food and family. Finally, we will look at how our ancestors can be honored in our home through altars and ritual. It is wise to know where you come from so you can know where you would like to go but it is a delicate balance that must be achieved so that you do not end up repeating family patterns which do not serve you. May will bring us a time of recognition of our past in order to design our future. A chance to break bonds and create our own paths. May will be a time to acknowledge where we have come from so that we are able to build our own kingdoms and become sovereign unto ourselves.

With love,

-Rose

28 Days of Love: Connecting With Your Heart Exercise

electric_heart_by_gxmew.png (1280×960)Day 2 Connecting with your heart exercise

Are you feeling that heart energy? It’s a soft, gentle, tug that flows from the center of your chest to your crown. It swirls through your brow brushing out the clouds of lowness. Bringing a sense of euphoria and celebration.

Heart Connection Exercise

Find a comfortable spot where you will be able to relax. This could be a chair, on a pillow on the floor, or your favorite place outside. Anywhere where you can relax, focus and not be interrupted is preferred. Settle into your space. Close your eyes. Focus your attention on your breath. Feel as the oxygen flows into your lungs, filling them with life. Envision all of your worries, all of the drama, all of your responsibilities of the day filling those bits of air. As you completely fill yourself with this deep breath hold it for 5-8 seconds. Really putting your attention towards instilling each other air particle with the stress that you intend to release. When you exhale envision all of those worries releasing to the universe where they are transmuted into refreshing air for the natural world.

Continue these breaths 5-10 times or for however long it takes until you feel completely at ease. Once you have entered that space, center your attention on each chakra starting with your root chakra. Feel it pulse, pull, and draw round your etheric being. There will be a moment when you will feel that connection. It is different for everyone. If you don’t feel anything such as a wave of energy flowing in that area. Repeat this for your sacral, solar plexus, heart, throat, third eye, and crown chakras. As you move upwards through each chakra pull that energy along as you go. Some areas may feel sluggish, although this isn’t an exercise to clear one’s energy you may want to spend some time doing so. You may feel a slight buzzing around your head from this exercise. Continue to move that energy upwards past the crown for our energy fields extend much further than that. In fact continue to let you energy expand as far out as you desire (to infinity and beyond ;)! )

At this time bring your attention back to your heart chakra located at the center of your chest. Feel it pulsate with life and joy. If you feel sorrow, regret, pain, or worry focus on the center of your heart. Burrow down and envision a spark of light/energy/life at that center point. From there picture whatever makes you smile. Then transfer your smile to your heart center. Let your heart smile ad shine forth. Fill it with joy and let that emotion of well-being radiate outwards moving down through your lower chakras into the earth then upwards until it reaches the stars.

When your heart smiles you are connected. Let your joy be your guide.

-Rose

Laying Down the Sword

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Greetings loves,

As you all know I’ve been doing quite a bit of self work. In doing so I’ve been reading the work of Alison Armstrong and to say it’s been an eye opener is a bit of an understatement. Ughhhhh we talked in my witchy circle the other day about how sometimes when doing a tarot card reading the cards just call you out. Making it oh so clear all the things that you really do not want to have to deal with. Well this book was the equivalent of that happening to me in the way that I approach masculinity. I must say though there are a couple of fundamental aspects of her teaching that I do not necessarily agree with that could be used by those who may not have the best interest for others but that’s an issue that I will let the author of the work deal with.

There’s quite a bit that is featured in her work so I encourage you to look into the books and other products if you are interested. I found that the portion that really connected to me was that she actually explained her thesis with examples in her work. I have seen quite a few “woman’s groups” that are focused on healing the feminine and the relationship to the masculine but to me they never truly explore the why. they never touch on the background of the topic and what has led to western society’s current state. As a sociologist I need this explanation and exploration! I am a why person. I need to know how, why, and what has occurred in conjunction with the topic in order to really be able to grasp and honestly believe the information that is being given to me. I also found the fact that the information was shared in a story format really assisted my creative side in being open to the information. The resistance was not as strong as it normally may be because I was able to see a multitude of examples applied to these characters so while I related to it it was in a gentle way that didn’t seem attacking.

So what I am adding to my new paradigm is to release my negative viewpoint on the capacity of men to be available and open. The one vow I made was to put down the sword at least when it comes to men in my personal life. Although I have put the sword down I have not put it away though because at times the need to defend is a just reality. It is wise to have the skills as I want to be as prepared as possible without being on the defense. In much the same way as I see reading Armstrongs’ work as gathering skills and information I too know that the lessons that I have learned have from times I had to take up the sword to be of use as well.

Perhaps the best part of this all is knowing when it is appropriate to lay down the sword instead of having it constantly ready to go. But it must be acknowledged that being able to put down the sword of defensiveness is a privilege that quite a few are unable to even test out. So I am appreciative of my ability to be able to explore a new a way of being. My tarot readings have consistently been implying that it’s time for me to take a new approach to things. That if I continue to hold on to my ways that I will find myself always caught in the same loop, living the same life only with different characters. I’m ready to change. To go back to a me that I can only remember as a child who could relate to my being infinite ways.

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So now I lay down the sword and pick up my scepter.

-Rose

 

Discipline and Change

Greetings beloveds,

Today was a beautiful day here in North Texas. The sun was shining and it was a moderate temperature. Just a delightful day. I met one of my dear friends for a quick bite to eat and chat. During our conversation I mentioned to her my difficulty with acting as the receiver within relationship and not as the initiator. I find the being patient portion of initiating contact and communication to be a form of gentle torture.

My dear friend told me a tale then about discipline and behaviors. She explained to me how taking a role of moving forward when the situation calls for time and space was a behavior that we may repeated so often that it became a habit. Being in a space of letting things come to us instead of taking action when it has not been called for takes discipline. This truly resonated with me in a big way.

I have a complicated history with discipline. It’s never been my strong suit as I have struggled with separating discipline from feelings of obligation and lack of choice. Above all else I make decisions based on what I believe will allow me the ability to have as much freedom as possible. The thought of being trapped, retained, unable to move or chose as I please is quite frightening. So committing to a choice that requires discipline to maintain the choice can feel like entrapment. To say, I will rest and wait to see what comes from this is a commitment to a choice that feels as if my actions/behaviors are restrained. Yet, feelings are deceptive. It’s imperative to examine whether this feeling accurately describes what is occurring in this moment.

bigstock-all-in-balance-256888911.jpg (1000×1000)Balance is a key to being able to maintain the desire for freedom with the discipline needed to create new habits and ways of being. Be gentle with yourself. If you are wanting to lose weight you take on a different set of behaviors with physical activity, eating habits, and ways of thinking. You may change your external environment so that you are inclined to be more physical and less sedentary. You may change your social environment so that the people you are around are more active and have similar view points as you do. You do things to make the changes that you want to achieve easier. Yet, if you move out of balance where there is no room for variance, fun, and continued growth then these changes you have made may swing your scales to far in one direction. So much movement may begin to irritate you as it lacks the space needed to be still and regroup. The super active social group may be a little too much all the time when you need a chance to sit and just watch a movie or chilling in nature without a need to move. There is always a need for balance. That’s why many folks suggests small changes when one wants to create new  habits because smaller changes are easier to maintain.

This same message can be applied to the discipline needed to not act when rest and receptivity are required. Take small steps of identifying a  friend or two who behave in this manner already. Spend a bit more time with them and observe their ways. If you are in a very aggressive, active, go-getter, super manifestor environment then locate some where where it’s a bit slower. Where taking time to rest is honored and appreciated. Spend a day or two here a week. You don’t have to throw yourself into the fire to change, although some of us have become accustomed to this form of transformation, you can slowly change your way of being and obtain the discipline through practice to maintain these changes.

So this is my plan for being more open  and recieving.

  • Get a reading. Lol well of course with me being me I did a tarot reading on myself to see where I was and what I needed to cultivate to be more open to myself/love.
  • Make small changes:
    •  My recommendations were
      • balance, organization, plenty self-trust, and redemption
      • I will meditate on these and put my focus on getting these areas of my life togther as opposed to listening to the incessant clatter from the world of how I should be or what I should be doing.
      • So I will set aside time for mediationand showing love for myself through some lovely baths and yoga.
      • I’ll get back to my creative pursuits reading, writing, drawing, and finishing my tarot deck
      • Spend more time at least one day reading through posts in groups online that hold the have tips and encourage these open heart strategies.
  • Basically I will put that action energy back towards myself and filling my own cup. I will commit to these changes and discipline myself to cultivate these new habits and ways of being.

With much love,

Rose

Freedom Comes at a Price: Releasing Our False Selves

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Greetings loves,

We are moving from the depths of our being to the freedom that comes from when we truly know who we are as we transition from Scorpio to Sagittarius astrologically. While Scorpio rules over the 8th house which is centered on our position to and experiences with love, sex, taxes, debt, and death. Right, most of the topics that folks would rather not discuss in public and even then these are difficult subjects to broach. This year, a 9 year which I discuss here, brought to the forefront that now is the time for us to go into the basement and take a good long look at what all we have been carrying around that needs to be faced.

Right now we are going through a universal winter. It seems that Game of Thrones may have been wiser then we all thought with their catchphrase of “winter is coming”. We are facing the shadow head on whether we are ready to or not. The results of which will lead to empowerment or delusion. We will all travel to the depths of the underworld but whether we all return is another story. Some of us are meant to stay in this space and others not. It will depend on the choices that we make at this time. Will you cling to your false light hoping that it will be enough to see you through or will you embrace your whole self both light and dark releasing duality and embracing polarity?

There are some of us who are the Dark Goddess and have been for quite some time. I have noted that these folks are feeling this shift the hardest. Going through the birthing pangs as Ereshkigal writhing alone and in the dark. Facing those who are saying “it’s not that bad” or “give it a chance let’s see how things go”. We know though that that only prolongs the process. It is only through BECOMING the  Dark Goddess and seeing her for who she truly is the Goddess of creation and rebirth, that we are able to live again. She is literally attempting to birth us into a new world at this time. So are you silencing her? Attempting to persuade her that her pain is not real? Or are you standing with her and seeing the truth of this moment?

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We all have a role to play so we must accept where folks are while continuing to share information and ensure the safety of everyone around us both near and far. Know that although you may feel as if you are strung up on the meat hook at this time that I see you both Goddess of heaven and earth/death. Your pain is not in vain. The tides will turn and you will rise with a fierceness of which they have never seen. You will find those who rejoice in your apparent loss of life and they will take your place hopefully to learn the lessons of the acceptance which must occur.

Wisdom will come from this crisis of faith. Quite a few of us are questioning everything. Our beliefs, our magic, our faith and trust in humanity. It’s the tricks of the times. Come back to center, feel your way through. Wisdom can come through sacrifice and suffering. The wisest have often gone through the most. Use this time to gather your resources, reserve your energy, and nourish your community. When the transition comes we will be needed. I felt this strongly about a week ago that when others awaken and come up from the underworld they will be looking for ways to act. This is already happening.

Take some time to yourself.  As I said to one of my loves recently, you’re no good to anyone if you’re not taking care of yourself.

I love you all,

-Rose

Thinning Veils

Greetings beloveds,

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I hope you are well. Have you felt a ease in the energies that you are experiencing? Has it become easier to rest in your truth and share from your soul? If so feel free to share how this came about and what you plan to do with this newfound ease in being.

I recently celebrated my 29th birthday. This was the end for me of the tumultuous Saturn return. I could definitely say that my time from age 26-29 has definitely been challenging but healing as well. I have faced the shadow and come to love her as a part of myself. Although I am still in the shadow of my return, and by in the shadow I mean when a planet passes through any constellation or moves by any planet there is that time before it actually passes to the time afterwards where one can still feel the effects of that planets influence. When one is experiencing the after effects that is known as being in that planets shadow. So for a bit longer I’ll feel the clearing, aligning, reformation around authority and relating for a while longer. I can say though on the day following my birthday I felt such calm. I was so grounded. As someone with only one earth sign in their birth chart it is unusual for me to be so stable. Yet I felt secure and at peace with all that I am and all that I will be.

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The day before my birthday I attended a know your purpose workshop put on by y wonderful friend Teri at her Epiphysis Center and it helped solidify all the things that I knew but was never bold enough to share or believe. The clarity that comes from those who support you, the love that you give to yourself, and taking time to listen to the divine will change your life. It can provide the guidance that so many of us desire while trying to navigate through our time in the space.

So as Samhain nears now is a perfect time to reconnect with your ancestors, those who have passed that you loved, and with the divine. I pray that you all will forever be safe and whole.

-Rose

 

 

 

Finding Yourself

Greetings beloveds,

Do you know who you are? It’s ok if the answer to that question is no or I’m not sure or hell even that you feel you probably never will.

It takes a while for us to be able to find our place. Know who we are. Most of us know when we are born up until the world begins to tell us who we are or who we should be. We know what makes our heart sing and our soul laugh. What we inherently enjoy and what we do not. What works for us and what is just not for our highest good. In most cases this knowledge is correct. In some, not so much. We come here with knowledge that is aware of all at that moment. Then life happens, the world changes, and what we know isn’t always current and applicable.

We have to learn again to know what is good for us and what isn’t. Even then that which is for us can be subjective. You are subjective. You are the author of your life. There is a path for you with many trials. Trails with similar routes and different destinations but all made exactly for you. Whichever route you choose is the one for you. It was where you were meant to be. That is the joy of our existence. Choosing the routes on the paths to our destiny.

You have the choice. There are those who are there which will direct you to different routes. Family, friends, societal institutions they bend your routes. They influence your choices. Free will is the ultimate freedom. Don’t let that be taken away from you.

Make the choice.

Choose wisely.

-Rose